It’s important to be aware of your own limitations.
after all, everyone has them
I’m not the most focused person under optimal conditions; add in a little stress and my brain is like an ADD golden retriever in a room full of tennis balls. If I don’t pay attention to everything, all at once, all the time, then something will definitely be forgotten.
Enter…
My To Do list, my ‘put it all down so it doesn’t jumble up my brain’ board, prioritized in order of ever-changing importance. Because I’m leaving for Texas in a week and a half, and if it’s not on the board, it’s just not getting done.
Yes, I’m going to Texas. The plan is to spend a few weeks job-hunting/sun-soaking, with the ultimate goal of getting myself hired and finally finishing the move that I started well over a year ago.
So I’m planning and organizing. Packing clothes, packing books, packing packingpacking, and I swear on all that is good that I never want to move again, because I think I’ve been packing for the better part of six months. I’ve got my car tuned up and my route laid out. My iPod is loaded with audio books, and I will no doubt be photographically documenting every single “Welcome To” sign between here and Austin.
And then at some point, after I walk through some God-opened door and I actually get myself hired, I will have a massive meltdown because, “Holy wow, it’s actually happening and I’m really moving 2000 miles away and somebody hold me, please.”
Not once have I ever, for a single, solitary moment, doubted that this move is the right thing to do, but somehow now, when I am so very close to being there, it’s finally becoming real. And awesome. And more than a little intimidating.
So I turn back to my board, and hope for the next ten days to keep my brain from falling out of my head. Maybe I should write a sticky note for that…
When my depression kicked in I thought, “No one wants to read a blog by someone who is all blah blah blah, I am depressed.” So instead you’re reading a blog by someone who is all, “It’s amazing what supplements and a reprieve from paid sleep deprivation will do to relieve depression.”
You know, so I don’t have to be all “blah blah blah.”
Yes, I am still freezing my appendages off in the Great White North. No success with the job hunt yet, and I made the executive decision to take a break for the holidays and come back to it with renewed enthusiasm in the new year. Because if anything is motivating, it’s the idea of being here for another February in New England.
What is Tumblr? It’s like Facebook-meets-Twitter-meets-blogging. It’s an incredibly nerdy little corner of the internet where memes are born and you can find just about anyone who’s really, really into that thing (or things) that you’re really, really into. It’s like social networking for the socially awkward, and all you have to do to be involved is just jump in with both feet. Tumblr is all about freeing yourself from the fear of being *too* into something. If you love it, love it loud. Shout it from the rooftops. Reblog a hundred photos of it. Tumblr is what you make of it, and my experience has been that it’s smart and creative, and a haven for the highly visual. Hell, there’s even a Tumblr ballad.
in summary:
what I’m listening to: Girl Bands
I was pretty jazzed when Florence + the Machine released Ceremonials at the beginning of November.
I then proceeded to listen to it about a hundred times over.
Then a few weeks ago, someone on Tumblr posted this music video:
I am in love with this video. I love the concept, I love the art direction. I think it’s brilliant and empowering, and I’m recommending it to everyone. Also, I am completely and totally obsessed with this song mix.
No, really.
So of course I bought Marina & the Diamonds’ The Family Jewels and I love it. LOVE. IT.
I may just have a thing for girl bands with a stylized “and” in their name.
what I’m watching: Nerd Stuff
This has not been a good television season so far. Supernatural is tanking, Sanctuary just tanked, and The Office has begun it’s slow and inevitable demise.
Oh yeah, and Community is on an indefinite hiatus.
The only show I’ve been really *excited* about is Once Upon a Time. It’s interesting and fun and has no problem embracing its campy side. But still Hannah and I were itching for a new show to get into and work our way through, whole seasons at a time. Enter…
Full confession: I’ve never been much of a Trekker. I watched all of the movies, but only occasionally caught an episode (save for the multiple-hour marathon I watched while Mom was in labor with Hannah). Prior to this month, I had only seen enough Deep Space Nine to know that it was set on a space station, the Ferengi were very ugly, and Dr. Julian Bashir was very, very cute.
That right there is face of my 13 year old self’s crush.
You may laugh, but a few years later I started watching Stargate SG:1 because of one Dr. Daniel Jackson, and truly began my descent into nerdom. My teen self seems to have been drawn to men with advanced degrees.
But I don’t think I would have appreciated Deep Space Nine as much then as I do now. It’s a slightly more serious Trek, layered with issues that I would not have understood or appreciated back then. The characters are so strong and so diverse that you can get a little spoiled before you realize that not all TV is like this. And as for the doctor?
He’s still pretty cute.
I’ve also been watching Kings, NBC’s short-lived attempt to modernize the story of King David.
It’s an interesting show, in that it’s really not *bad*. It seems to have suffered from being a little too high concept and a little too reliant on allusions that the audience may not always catch. It plays out much like a modernized Shakespeare tale, with rich dialogue and solid performances. David is a somewhat bland protagonist, but the other characters more than make up for his lack of depth and pathos. I’ve really enjoyed it a lot, and it’s a shame that NBC gave up on yet anothertruly original show.
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So that’s what I’ve been up to for the past, oh, two months or so. It’s the new year now and all I have to say to 2012 is…
Sometimes I wonder why I didn’t get into comics when I was younger…
and then I realize that Younger Emily really didn’t need things to be even more of a nerd about.
Plus, it is fun to discover that there’s a whole wide world of stuff that’s entirely new to you.
Comics are great escapism, of course, which makes them a welcome addition to a somewhat dreary October. No news on Austin yet, and it’s thoroughly fall-time here.
I’m in the ‘twilight zone’ of moving: making mental preparations to leave while still being here, unable to entirely ignore day-to-day planning and the reality of things like the impending holiday season. It’s weird…but it’s a mostly okay weird.
Not once have I ever, for a single, solitary moment, doubted that this move is the right thing to do, but somehow now, when I am so very close to being there, it’s finally becoming real. And awesome. And more than a little intimidating.
I’m in the ‘twilight zone’ of moving: making mental preparations to leave while still being here, unable to entirely ignore day-to-day planning and the reality of things like the impending holiday season. It’s weird…but it’s a mostly okay weird.
