my goal today

Is to be able to place twenty of these on a map for my geography quiz…

A few things:

1. Ignore the fact that I misspelled Novosibirsk. And Kazakhstan.

2. I had to generalize the location of Tibet, as our atlas does not recognize it as an official country. Not only does it not have borders, it’s not even named. This is one of the many ways in which maps can be a tool of political systems.

3. Seeing countries in relation to each other, like China and North Korea, or Iran and Iraq, can be helpful for understanding current tensions.

4. Kazakhstan is bigger than I thought it would be. Bangladesh is smaller. And call me stupid, but I’ve never really thought about the Middle East as being part of the Asian continent. It’s always been just…the Middle East.

5. Beijing looks really cool written out.

474

I talked to K-La! *warm fuzzies*

I haven’t spoken to her since she left for school two months ago. That girl brings I smile to my face, I miss her so much. Well, I miss most of my friends that I haven’t seen since school started. But Kayla especially because she’s smart and funny and has a beautiful heart, and now she’s so far away. Talking to her was like sunshine on a cold day (and I’m not exaggerating – it’s freezing here today)

Kayla, if you read this, love you muchos! Can’t wait to talk more tomorrow…

on writing

Dad’s recently been reading the works of Charles Bukowski, the 60′s-era beat poet. He sent this to me today:

If it doesn’t come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don’t do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words,
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it for money or
fame,
don’t do it.
if you’re doing it because you want
women in your bed,
don’t do it.
if you have to sit there and
rewrite it again and again,
don’t do it.
if it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,
don’t do it.
if you’re trying to write like somebody
else,
forget about it.

if you have to wait for it to roar out of
you,
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you’re not ready.

don’t be like so many writers,
don’t be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don’t be dull and boring and
pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-
love.
the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to
sleep
over your kind.
don’t add to that.
don’t do it.
unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don’t do it.
unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don’t do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

I saw my ASL professor in our little town Post Office this past week. I nearly greeted her, then thought better of it, because she’s deaf and I don’t actually remember much sign language.

*smacks forehead*